I have been putting off dreams for too long. There are many things I would like to do that I simply do not start. Why? Hundreds of reasons I’m sure, but I believe the main culprit is distractions that I allow myself to fall in to. I watch too much TV, browse facebook, twitter, and sports blogs. None of these are traditional sins, I’m not watching porn, being rude, or cheating on my wife. But slowly, surely, nothing is happening. It’s akin to the Screwtape Letters when Wormwood tells Screwtape that one of the best ways to keep a man securely on the way to hell is put in front of him a gentle sloping path with no bumps, risks, desires, or love. So, I pray that I can resist the distractions and begin to produce more.
I enjoy writing, and that is what I shall do (in addition to my job, of course Camp Rockmont). Even at work though, its time to really start doing things and not be hesitant or scared anymore. There shall be no more “I’ll do that tomorrow”. Don’t get me wrong, I’m a hard worker, but it’s time to be more than that. But this particular post is not about work.
It’s also not about fame, and oh how the Devil has done some clever work there. For a while, thoughts of good ideas I had were followed almost immediately by visions of wealth, tv appearances, nicer clothes, a new car, travel, looking cool, you know the usual trappings. I soon recognized my hypocrisy and decided to put it off until I had a better handle on my ego (good luck with that). But even that decision puts off the actual doing/writing of anything! Clever, that Devil. So, enough of that thinking, I will write, do things, ship ideas, and initiate projects. I’m 27 years old and its time to do more of what God put me here to do. What’s ironic is that I’m feeling more and more at ease with who I am and the power of God in me, giving that strength through him. A lot of people quote Phillipians 4:13, and it’s a great verse, but have you ever read verse 12? Here is the whole verse in context: “12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” So I can be famous or poor, with many friends or few, with delicious food or bland, I can handle it all through him who gives me strength.
So I will begin to write, because I believe God has given me stories to tell besides my own. I will not be the one who stands in the way of them being told. First up, a book of short writings (poets would be offended for me to call it poetry) about my rambles through the woods and nature in general. I hope that maybe Patagonia will like it, they seem to be down with the whole environmentalism thing.
Keep me accountable!